Dear Internet,

Dear Internet,
I haven't blogged. I know, my life has been really eventful, dramatic, stressful. But for some reason, nothing seemed worth blogging about. I'm sure I could have vented so much, and told very interesting stories, but the words "I need to blog about this." Never echoed in my head. So I didn't. ACT's are tomorrow, but that's not what I want to blog about.

Actually today while sitting in AP Lang. & Composition, I spaced off yet again. Just observing nature outside the window. There is this actually rather beautiful quaint forest type thing next to the school. In my opinion our school doesn't deserved to be graced by it. Anyway, this one tree caught my attention. It was kind of magical actually. The strangest thing. This tree, not a single leaf or branch moved on this tree. It's like it was frozen in time. This may seem  normal if it were a calm summer day, but it's spring, and there's a breeze. Proof of this breeze, well all the other trees and leaves surrounding this tree moved dramatically, but for some reason this tree mas motionless. Perfectly still. I can't understand it, it intrigued me. I watched it all period, and it didn't make the slightest movement. Maybe it snuck in a few shakes whenever I blinked, but I never witnessed if it did.

To my disappointment, I didn't have time to go check the tree out after school. But after this observation I immediately thought, "I need to blog about this." And so therefore here I am blogging about it.

Sincerely,
Ela

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Dear Internet,
Once I again I don't feel like addressing those topics. I suppose I'll use those when I have nothing to blog about, but today I do.

Well to start off I auditioned for the talent show with Julie, She sings, and I Harmonize and play the piano. Problem is she decided that she was auditioning around 4th period, and than she decided to ask me to be her pianist around 7th. Therefore I spent 8th per looking for the piano chords for the song.And for the auditions I had to totally wing it. It's a good thing that chords are very easy to improvise with, and it helps that I know the song. Honestly though, I think I did a pretty miraculous job during the audition, considering it's the first time I ever played it.

I guess you can say I had a decent day, but right now it doesn't feel like it. I feel, I don't know, just upset. I'm not sure why though. It's not a mood swing. I don't do mood swings. Something is bringing me down, and I'm not sure what. I have been through things like that random feeling of loneliness, but this isn't that. Sure I do feel pretty lonely, but I just know that there is a source for this. I've spent time thinking, trying to figure out what is bothering me so much. I need therapy or something, if I don't even know what it is. Maybe I'm in some sort of denial or something. Perhaps it's a cause from this fatigue and exhaustion I'm feeling. (I just woke up from a nap, and I still don't feel better. -___-) Well, I guess I'll end this here for now.

Sincerely,
Ela

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