Motionless------x

Dear Internet,
I haven't blogged. I know, my life has been really eventful, dramatic, stressful. But for some reason, nothing seemed worth blogging about. I'm sure I could have vented so much, and told very interesting stories, but the words "I need to blog about this." Never echoed in my head. So I didn't. ACT's are tomorrow, but that's not what I want to blog about.

Actually today while sitting in AP Lang. & Composition, I spaced off yet again. Just observing nature outside the window. There is this actually rather beautiful quaint forest type thing next to the school. In my opinion our school doesn't deserved to be graced by it. Anyway, this one tree caught my attention. It was kind of magical actually. The strangest thing. This tree, not a single leaf or branch moved on this tree. It's like it was frozen in time. This may seem  normal if it were a calm summer day, but it's spring, and there's a breeze. Proof of this breeze, well all the other trees and leaves surrounding this tree moved dramatically, but for some reason this tree mas motionless. Perfectly still. I can't understand it, it intrigued me. I watched it all period, and it didn't make the slightest movement. Maybe it snuck in a few shakes whenever I blinked, but I never witnessed if it did.

To my disappointment, I didn't have time to go check the tree out after school. But after this observation I immediately thought, "I need to blog about this." And so therefore here I am blogging about it.

Sincerely,
Ela

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Anxiety------x

Dear Internet,
Once I again I don't feel like addressing those topics. I suppose I'll use those when I have nothing to blog about, but today I do.

Well to start off I auditioned for the talent show with Julie, She sings, and I Harmonize and play the piano. Problem is she decided that she was auditioning around 4th period, and than she decided to ask me to be her pianist around 7th. Therefore I spent 8th per looking for the piano chords for the song.And for the auditions I had to totally wing it. It's a good thing that chords are very easy to improvise with, and it helps that I know the song. Honestly though, I think I did a pretty miraculous job during the audition, considering it's the first time I ever played it.

I guess you can say I had a decent day, but right now it doesn't feel like it. I feel, I don't know, just upset. I'm not sure why though. It's not a mood swing. I don't do mood swings. Something is bringing me down, and I'm not sure what. I have been through things like that random feeling of loneliness, but this isn't that. Sure I do feel pretty lonely, but I just know that there is a source for this. I've spent time thinking, trying to figure out what is bothering me so much. I need therapy or something, if I don't even know what it is. Maybe I'm in some sort of denial or something. Perhaps it's a cause from this fatigue and exhaustion I'm feeling. (I just woke up from a nap, and I still don't feel better. -___-) Well, I guess I'll end this here for now.

Sincerely,
Ela

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Speechless------x

Dear Internet,
I'm in quite a dilemma. It seems that I've written a song (with the help of my beautiful book of blank sheet music :]) but unfortunately I don't have words for it. Now most song writers would normally write the words first, but this made up tune has been stuck in my head for ages. And as a result I've vomitted the tune out on sheet music, tweaked it, made it sound good, and now it needs words. And I must say, it is impossible to write words for a tune that has been already made. Because the words need to fit along with the song.

Note to self: NEVER put notes down on paper if you haven't written the lyrics yet.

Well, I had some serious topics I wanted to address but I suppose I'll stop here for tonight. I have a MUN Position paper to write, and an AP research paper to write. I need to get to those.

Sincerely,
Ela

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The Beginning of The End------x

Dear internet,
It seems I was a bit distracted yesterday and failed to blog. But, I'm here now, with the strong urge to blog, as if it's become some sort of addiction now. It'd be rather stupid to have to get help for this. Imagine group pep talks with others suffering from an addiction.

Introductions
"Hi my name is Daniel and I suffer from a serious Heroine addiction :["
"Hey you guys, I'm Anna and I'm addicted to alcohol. =/"
"Uhm, Hi, I'm Ela and I'm gravely addicted to blogging >.>"
*People stare*

Anyway, spring break has ended, and the fourth and final quarter of the year has started, and after that, I'll officially be a Senior in high school. Sure, I could be excited, almost done with school and I'm out of here. But as soon as junior year ends, that's when things get serious, and the stress starts running our lives. No more bull shitting around, now blowing things off. I can no longer just go with the flow and cruise through life. No, those days will soon be over, and then I have to seriously start preparing hardcore for the future. Yea sure, I can still have fun and all, but it won't be the same, I won't be able to be the same chill laid back person who could care less about school. Besides I'm the type of person who breaks down and just can't bring myself to enjoy anything during times of stress. Sometimes, I wish that I could just live everyday doing whatever I wanted, and just.... chill. Wait I'm sorry did I say sometimes? I meant all the time. Damn, if only we had the money to pay for college easily, so that at least there would be one less thing I'd have to worry about. And I wouldn't have to work hard for scholarships. Those are hard to come by these days, seeing as  everyone is trying to get one. 


On a brighter note, it has come to my attention, that fat Mexican girls in really tight white shirts should not be allowed out in public. Today during 2nd period there was this little mini show for students who haven't gotten any steps, detentions, referrals, or anything that shows bad behavior. It was just a bunch of performances from the EHS Poms team, Chamber Choir, Jazz Band, Freestyle Dance club, and the absolute worse, Latino Dance club. Lemme tell you, that Latino dance club was pointless. Sure that dancing may be fun to dance, but to perform? There's nothing to see, they're just moving their hips and walking. Anyone with any rhythm could dance that. It was stupid, and the worse part, was this one really fat chick was a dancer, and her partner like the scrawniest little boy standing next to her. He really wasn't that tiny, she just made him look that way. And when he had to dip her I couldn't help but belt out laughing because that poor kid looked like he was going to topple over and break. He was definitely struggling whenever he had to dip her. I'm surprised she didn't fall.


Speaking of falling, I fell out of a tree during band practice. No we don't send practice messing around in trees, we were just waiting for the  sub drummer (Marshall) and Julie. To be honest I was really iffy about Marshall, he doesn't exactly know what he's doing, but he's coming along now. I feel like we'll do decent at BOTB. It kills me that our real drummer won't be there, because like I've said, when we're all together we make magic and I believe that we'd actually win, if only our drummer could make it. With Marshall, out of 9 bands we may come in 4th or 5th. Well, that's all that I cared about today.


Sincerely,
Ela

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Family Bonding------x

Dear Internet,
Tell me, why is it that everyone gets on my case on what to do when I get out of high school? Sure, I do have things I want to do, but I just don't know what of those things I want to stick with for the rest of my life. That's what My dad asked me when he forced us out to dinner with him. When I said I don't know, he went off on me, my mom just sat back and remained silent not even helping me out because she agrees with him. She already blew up on me in the past for that. Anyway that was a blast. He didn't seem to appreciate my one word answers to him. He tells me that "smart" people don't have an attitude like I do. He doesn't seem to understand that I only have this attitude towards him. He tells me I'm stupid, he says "With that attitude you're not going to get anywhere in life. I hope you'll enjoy living life on the streets like some whore."  What does his ass know about being smart anyway? I'm more talented then him, I'm better looking, I most certainly have a higher IQ and am way smarter than he is. Well, he'll just have to swallow his words, when I'm famous we'll see who "isn't going anywhere" then. He'll regret every time he's brought me down. Another cheesy line from yours truly, but you'll just have to deal with it.

Sincerely,
Ela

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A perfect harmony------x

Dear Internet,
Well to start off, I'm not one to express herself through blogging. I have other ways, like playing music, just pick a random chord and play music based off it on my piano. I never really remember whatever I do though. Fortunately I recently bought  a book of blank sheet music to start writing my notes down.

Speaking of music, we made magic today. By we I mean Equal Status, our band. Em(guitarist) came with chords for another original song she wrote. Julie (vocals) had already knew the lyrics to the song. Em started playing, Lawson (drummer) and I improvised along making shit up on the spot, Em and I started harmonizing with Julie vocally, and it all went so perfect. It may sound cheesy, but we all felt the music, how beautifully the song went sent chills down my spine and never have I gotten so into, nor have I had so much fun playing a song. Crazy thing is, we've never played the song together before, and it was the first time Lawson and I had heard/looked at it. It's as if we were all meant to play together, like we knew exactly what the other was thinking. It was electrifying. It's such a good song, I have a good feeling about it.

I'm pretty sure I'm rambling on about something people wouldn't care about, but I suppose that it matters to me so there we go. There so much more that I could talk about, and possibly more interesting to the general public, a lot happens when you have band practice from 10am to 5 pm. But that's what stuck in my head.

Sincerely,
Ela

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